Sheesh. A girl moves to a new house and the next thing you know, she ups and disappears on you. So, you may or may not have wondered where I disappeared to. If you haven’t wondered, well, I’m going to tell you anyway. Allow me to sum up. Here’s what I’ve been up to for the last couple of months.
1. I moved into a new home.

If you are a regular follower this is not news. If you are new to these parts, let me just say that 21 houses in 24.5 years of marriage takes its toll. I still have boxes everywhere and have yet to figure out where I am going to put things.
I do not have a working living room area. When we were buying the house, the floor wasn’t finished in the living room and I was not excited about the laminate flooring the previous owner was about to install. I asked if he would not install it as I wanted something different, but I failed to negotiate a credit for the cost of the flooring. Hard wood is expensive, people! I’m saving up for it, but in the meantime, the Daja and I thought it would be a good time to start a project.

Ryley is cleaning the piano in preparation for the paint. I’ve never liked blonde wood and this piano has been on my To Do list for a couple of years. Since it is actually the girl’s piano and I’m just housing it for her until she has her own home, I let her decide how we were going to paint it. It was an ambitious project and it is still waiting to be completed. It’s going to have to wait a little longer.
My kitchen is a disaster zone, but that’s my fault for ripping it apart. All I really wanted to do was tear down the wallpaper and get rid of the carpet in the kitchen. Is that too much to ask? Is it? Apparently, it is. It was soon obvious that those two tasks would not be as easy as I’d hoped.

I have lovingly taken to calling our new home the Hydra house. If you recall your Greek mythology, the Hydra was a creature that grew two heads every time one was cut off.

That pretty much describes our house. For every problem we solve, two more pop up in its place.
On the up side, we have a new water heater, dehumidifier and a chicken coop. The ladies are all settled back into their new home, although Hubs has been working to make a heated water bucket for them. He excitedly showed me the chicken nipples he received yesterday for the bucket. Yeah. We’re weird like that.
2. I am driving my life away. Literally.
Since the beginning of summer, I have put 8,000 miles on my car. That’s 8 THOUSAND miles in the last 5 months! I wish I were joking. A thousand of those miles were spent on our family trip to Washington DC. The rest of the miles can almost all be attributed to this kid.

Some of our miles were clocked running him back and forth to the Boy Scout Camp (1 hour north of us) a couple of times a week because Buddy worked up at the camp as a lifeguard. Some of the miles came from his band activities. Buddy was the drum major for the high school marching band. Parades and games and band camp meant more driving.

By the way, Katie, my sister-in-law with Down Syndrome who lives with us, absolutely ADORES Buddy’s band stuff. She gets super excited for any and all band performances. Here, she is demonstrating her mad skills with the mace.

It is completely adorable how thrilled she gets for the band stuff. It is one of her few happy places. Katie’s default mode runs toward the surly, so any time we can find something that brings out a smile, we are more than willing to spend time on those things.

Kiddo is also in the band, but he joined too late to march this year. He is learning to play the tuba, though, and will join the band next year. Katie will be beside herself with glee.

The main driving activity that has sucked the very life out of me has been school. Buddy is doing a college program for his junior and senior year. It is a dual program that will give him both high school and college credit. He will graduate from high school with an Associates degree in electromechanical engineering. The problem is that Buddy doesn’t drive yet and the college is a 30 minute drive from our house. To add to that, Kiddo is still attending school in our old district, which is another 20 minutes in the car to pick him up from school each day.
Seriously. I need to figure out a way to work on my home and do projects while I am driving. I’ll let you know if I come up with anything, but right now it’s super hard to get involved in a project only to have to stop and go pick someone up or drop them off somewhere.
3. I’m Sick and Tired.
Again, I mean this literally. Excuse me for sharing, because I really don’t like to air all my aches and pains for fear of sounding like one of those old people who tells you about the quality of their bowel movements when you ask how they are. But, since this post is all about excuses, this is one of mine.
The month of August (yeah, the same month we were moving) my body decided that would be a swell time to try and pass a kidney stone. It really wasn’t. A good time, that is. Nor, do I think I actually fully passed the stone. I think it’s still in there waiting to flare up at another super inconvenient time. I haven’t wanted to go to the doctor to figure it out.
I don’t like my doctor. He’s a jerk. His bedside manner is non-existent and he HATES it if I make any kind of the tiniest suggestion that I might have some idea what is going on with my body. It’s almost as if he will actually try to disprove what I think is going on. So, if I went to him and said I think I have a kidney stone (I’ve had 3 of them already so I’m pretty familiar with the symptoms) he’d probably try to convince me it’s arthritis.
If you are wondering why I just don’t change doctors, trust me, I have strongly considered it. But if you’ve never lived in a small town, let me tell you that quality doctors are not exactly thick on the ground. And ones that accept new patients are even more difficult to find. He does actually listen to me on occasion and I’m learning the right way to talk to him to get better results.
After we moved, I had a flare up of the ol’ depression. Big surprise considering all the life changes and the sickness and the lack of projects to take the edge off.

It was one of those bouts of depression that is sneakier than the rest. This actually sums it up quite well.
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It often takes me a while to figure out when I am excessively tired that it is depression. However, I heard a psychiatrist once say that when excessive fatigue is interfering with the normal routine of your life, then it is depression. Not that I haven’t had plenty of reasons to be tired, but I have been on the depression bandwagon long enough to recognize the signs for me. It just always takes me longer when my depression manifests as fatigue instead of sadness or the other ways I have discussed in the past.
Suffice it to say, that there has been a lot of this going on.
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I also discovered I have two bulging discs in my neck, as well as carpal tunnel which is causing my right hand to go numb All. The. Time. It’s hugely annoying. I’m waiting for a referral to figure out what my options are. I currently spend a great deal of my time trying to find a position for my hand/arm that doesn’t cause constant tingling in my fingers.
4. My Baby Girl is Going on a Mission
If you don’t know, my family belongs to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, aka the Mormon church. My daughter decided a few months ago that she wanted to go on a mission. She received her mission call in August and was called to serve in the Sacramento, California mission. She will be speaking Spanish on her mission. She goes into the Mission Training Center (MTC) in Provo, Utah on November 14th. We are so proud of her, but I am going to miss that girl like crazy.

She has been living in Provo for the last few years, and I’ve only gotten to see her in the Spring and at holidays during that time, but she and I text or talk on the phone multiple times a week. She is not only my daughter, but also my friend.

One of the rules of the mission life is that you can not call your family. You can write a letter once a week, but no texting or Facebook or Skype or calls. She will be gone for 18 months and I will only get a phone call on Mother’s day and Christmas. She will be in the MTC this Christmas, but I actually won’t get to speak to her then, since there are just too many missionaries to be able to let them all call home.
She came home from Provo in mid-September to be with us until it is time for her mission. Since I have such a short time with her, I have been trying to just enjoy our time together and not bog myself down with projects that distract me from her. She is such a delightful daughter and I am so proud of the beautiful woman she is becoming.
She is a sneak-thief, though. While running errands for me one day, she came across a lady giving away kittens at a gas station. She could not resist and ended up bringing home a kitten. She happened to have my credit card on her at the time so she was able to buy all the kitten supplies she needed. She successfully hid the cat from us for a week before we figured out we had a new family member. Good thing he’s cute and Katie loves him. Otherwise, he’d be outta here.

Remember how I said we tend to go with things that makes Katie smile? Well, she not only smiles, but also talks to the kitty. It’s rare for her to initiate conversation of any kind, but she becomes very animated around him and is so playful and happy with the kitty that it looks like we have new family member.
Katie calls the kitten Tiger, but Ryley actually named him Adam Levine, so she can say funny things like, “I just snuggled with Adam Levine for two hours!” or “Adam Levine, stop licking my face!” That girl cracks me up.

Both of my fur children decided I need their love on my feet the other night. I am currently sick, again. I have a bad cold and they must have figured I needed the extra love.
So, there you have it. My essay on why I haven’t been blogging. I have managed a project or two here and there. I did decorate my dining room, which is the only room to have received any kind of attention. I was in a mood and needed some pretty in my life. We are working on some sewing projects for Miss Ryley’s mission, so it’s kind of destroyed again.
*Sigh* One day, soon, I will not be driving thither and yon or playing with my girl or sleeping or recovering from one illness or another. And on THAT day, I promise you, I will have a tool in my hand and a project will ensue. I swear it.
Suesan




Welcome back, what a crazy life you are living. I think I would be depressed if I moved almost every year of my life for the last 25 years...I'm exhausted! Love your new kitty!
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Goodness. no wonder you're a bit frazzled! I love that you can still see the joys despite all that is on your shoulders at the moment. That is surely the key to survival during those rough times! Also, my friend named her cat William Wallace not for the same reasons, but I'm thinking that naming cats after people can be quite entertaining! :)
ReplyDeleteI completely understand the "I seem to be really, really tired and on edge and whoops I think it's my depression showing up again thing." I just had the same thing happen. I was cranky and snapping at everybody and cried a few nights in a row over little things that did not warrant that much emotion. So today I'm taking a personal day, hanging out on my couch, and letting myself do whatever I feel like. It seems to be helping so far!
ReplyDeletecan I come out and help you?? You h ave sooooo much on your plate right now. so sorry. we getting together soon?
ReplyDeleteHi - I LOVED this post! You don't always have to have a project - it's lovely to have a glimpse into your life, and boy is it a full one!
ReplyDeleteYou will love to have that kitty around when your daughter goes. She's got some wisdom, that one.
Remember I told you we are moving too? Here's where we are so far: the house is on the market, we're still finishing up details, and while I have to say it looks fantastic, all the sheds and storage areas look like hoarders live here. Then we had a death in the family and then I got sick, so all work has stalled. I have a lower respiratory infection. I've only ever had upper ones before, and this seems to be a lot worse. Anyway, we're running out of money and I'm turning down work, and our tenants are gradually moving out because they know we're selling. Meanwhile, the house is getting interest but no offers. Our agent says after Nov. 15th it won't sell till after Christmas. Augh!!
The funny thing is though, I'm not currently depressed. Last week my mother died, but she had Alzheimer's for years and they put butterflies all over her door when she was on her deathbed and that's what it feels like - she's free at last. After my Dad died I was depressed for three years, but I actually think it had a lot more to do with my Mum than my Dad. She was in a horrible prison for an indeterminate sentence.
Anyway, all that to say I sure identify with having so many important life things happening at one time, and having to concentrate on the ones that matter the most right now. It sounds like your priorities are ones you won't regret later on (you can do the floor when your daughter is gone), and you're still able to see the humour of it all, so your sanity will come through intact. :)
Take care,
Jan Elizabeth
P.S. When you are ready to do that floor, while you wait to save up the money, have you looked on Pinterest at the paper bag flooring? Some of it is wonderful! And super cheap.
Hugging you gently sweetie...you need some extra love today.
ReplyDeleteYour daughter is lovely for sure and I hope she enjoys her mission. Your sons are adorable and your SIL is so cute. Glad she has found things that make her world joyful.
Be well dear one...may that bothersome kidney stone pass once and for all and leave you alone. I have had them and know what you are going through.
Rest and don't stress yourself about the house. These things will get done..,.when you have a clear head and energy...don't rush it.
Hugs
SueAnn
Oh Suesan, I am at the other end of that story blissfully enjoying the freedom. Katie is with you and I actually have NO house guests. No one else to clean up after than my own brood and I am now petty good at convincing them to clean up after themselves. I painted the whole entire outside of the house by myself in 2 weeks. I had to get dressed in paint clothes 4 times some days. Wake up early get ready to paint for the day, get the kids to school, paint like crazy, change shirt, pick up the kindergartner 3 hours latter, get paint shirt back on, paint like crazy, change, take a different child to the dentist, change back, yell from the ladder how to fix dinner, change, go to some kid's track meet or something, go to sleep, then do it again. But honestly depression is not an issue now so this last 2 weeks have been invigorating.
ReplyDeleteI feel so bad for you I wish tell-a-porting was an option. Then again I jealously hoard the freedom time because a girl desperately needs it to recover. What is the possibly of a respite break? I could not see the exhaustion as a tell tail sign of depression while I was in it, but when I am not it is pretty obvious.
Love you guys.
Ps I brag about your projects to all my friends, the world needs you, do whatever it takes girl to get to a better place. Ask for the moon. Lets get those men of ours together for a talk we are in this together.
ReplyDeleteOn second thought you can tell a lifeguard how to save you if you are drowning they already have to know. SCREAM!
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Wow, I would have to give you a medal & call you Wonder Woman if you WEREN'T depressed after all that! I've been an emotional wreck this past week over much less (& no, it's not pms) I hope you can find some relief and peace in your situation.
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